Instead, I’ll share with you some of the things I have been experiencing in Colorado. I don’t know that living in Denver has a great deal of influence on my new adventures. But I will say that my move from the east coast and my new found appreciation for outdoor life/sports seems to be fairly coincidental (I’ll have to share my story about Survival School at some point).

One of my new hobbies is firing semi automatic pistols. In fact I am contemplating a purchase for recreational use and home protection. The difficult part is that my political and social views have me on the fence. I did however, take an NRA course that allows me the right to apply for a concealed carry permit in Colorado - scary huh? Although I have no intention of carry a gun on my person, it was interesting to learn how to safely handle and fire a gun.

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It’s awkward changing a diaper for the first time or figuring out the best way to hold your child. But I’ll tell you that none of it matters right now. People told me that I would get very little sleep for the first few months. That indeed has come true so far, but I must admit it’s completely my fault. I’m sure I would be able to get more rest if I could just stop staring at her.

Anyway, I’m sure I’ll have more to write soon. In the meantime, feel free to check out www.mayliajordan.com

That is, how do I adjust for what may well be the most important role I will ever have as a man, “Dad”? Will this be a natural transition that yields to instinct? Or rather, will my progression be a learned skill that requires that I compartmentalize some of my current routines? Does that mean I may slight my wife as her husband or become less of a friend in the process?

Sure I have more questions than answers, but the journey and discovery phase of what I am experiencing as an expecting father brings true joy at this stage in life. It brings true joy in spite of the fact that at times I feel helpless when I confront the truth of having to fill yet another role. As much as I have denied it over time, I am NOT a multi-tasker. With that in mind, how will I shuffle the cards that life has dealt?

I think the answer has to be faith. Now I’m not talking about faith as in a higher being (topic for another time). I mean faith in the true meaning of believing in the unkown to the point of express optimism. When I went to college I brought as many of the suggested dorm nick-nacks as possible, yet in hindsight, none of those items helped me survive life as a co-ed. I picked out work clothes when I was hired by a life insurance company after graduation, yet clothes did not prepare me for the culture shock of corporate America.

Like the dorm nick-nacks and the business attire, I believe the toys, onesies and diapers (plenty of those) are a great start. However, it will be the faith I have of knowing that I will succeed in my new role as father that will see me through the onslaught of internal questioning and doubt. The successful progression of a man has to be defined as his ability to adapt to each new role that life brings.

Some boys never become men and some men with children never become fathers. In the end, my fear of failing to progress in my life journey fuels my blind trust.